a song to the crushed heart. When there is no hope, not a trace of smile.
I have often told you stories About the way I lived the life of a drifter Waiting for the day When I'd take your hand And sing you songs Then maybe you would say Come lay with me love me And I would surely stay
But I feel I'm growing older And the songs that I have sung Echo in the distance Like the sound Of a windmill goin' 'round I guess I'll always be A soldier of fortune
Many times I've been a traveller I looked for something new In days of old When nights were cold I wandered without you But those days I thougt my eyes Had seen you standing near Though blindness is confusing It shows that you're not here
Now I feel I'm growing older And the songs that I have sung Echo in the distance Like the sound Of a windmill goin' 'round I guess I'll always be A soldier of fortune Yes, I can hear the sound Of a windmill goin' 'round I guess I'll always be A soldier of fortune
The day shall read 25th of April 2013. It was a very normal day. with me being grumpy, struggling through work. the usual stuff.
From here onwards my happiness graph will keep rising. A happy day. Mallu day !!
Below is the chronolgical order of things, as they happened. Happy reading!!
7p.m : My reaction to my manager and off i am from work!! :D :D
8 p.m. Slight drizzle in Hyderabad. And adrak waali chai with Sneha Shroff.!!
the sweet smell of rain , the ginger tea , and zehrila company. it felt divine :)
My reaction :
11:50 pm .: The plan was to act all cool and hunky dory and pretend that we did not care about Mallika's birthday. Did i mention Mallika? No? ok. This, my people, is mallika
a good friend. college mate, fellow factset employee. The next sherlock holmes ;) And it was her birthday. So we had all decided to pretend that we would put up a no-bhaaaw act.
12:10 a.m : The plan was that Himanshu (mallika's whatsapp buddy) would call her downstairs, and we would jump out from behind the car to surprise her. but to everyone's surprise ( :D ) mallika calls up shruti to remind her about her own birthday!
My reaction: ROFL
12:30 am : the plan pans out well. she is blindfolded and taken to shilparamam night bazaar. ( the bazaar where no shops are open, save the ATM )
the one where i pull a sneha pose, and mallu has no clue!!
the one where the whatsapp buddy guides the blindfolded
12:45 a.m : THE CAKE WAS CUTTED!! (find the grammatical error :P task for who??? guesses?)
the one with the cake. chocolate cake. very tasty cake.
I will allow to take a moment and observe the picture above. observe each and every face above. This is how you are supposed to sing a birthday song. khula hua mooh, and dil se nikli taaliyaa !! :D
the situation demands my reaction :
1 am : Everyone realizes the importance of clicking decent pictures. here's ours:
1:15 am:
The one where everyone pulls of a sneha pose!!! to be observed :the bliss on rroshan's face!
1:30 am : this was followed by giving gifts to the birthday the girl. (yes, we give gifts, good ones at that, please befriend us. )
(LtoR)the one with mallika and teddy. no the teddy and mallika. dont know. :P
the one with the collage created by rroshan. those photoshop skills...
the one with the shoro creations' hand made card :)
2:am :there are moments in a party where you start clicking some pictures, some very emberassing pictures.
the one with the muscles, and mallika, and a gay ravish
the one with more muscles, and ravish.
priceless capture!!
2:30 am : Everyone sets off to DLF. And this is where the birthday went from
It was drizzling, and we had samosas in DLF. Bliss level one- attained
From here, we went on a loong drive. the wind on our faces, nothing to worry about, happiness. Bliss level two -attained.
bhaisaheb!!
the one with the 60 km/hr capture.
3:am : Cars were parked on the road. the sunsaan road. Music was played from the car. And then we danced. And then it rained. We danced. We danced to the Himanshu punjabi songs. We danced to the Sneha sastaa songs.We danced to the rain. Imagine the bliss :)
And as i sit and reflect( yes, i do that a lot) i realize the fact that these times will never return, these awesome moments, this madness will not stay. what will stay is the feeling, the bonding, the love and compassion we have for each other. what will stay are these moments that we are creating for each other. what will stay is we are together, dancing , merry making, being crazy, being stupid. being 7saath, or as mallika would say sevenSaath :)
This is the end, beautiful friend This is the end, my only friend, the end Of our elaborate plans, the end Of everything that stands, the end No safety or surprise, the end I'll never look into your eyes, again
Can you picture what will be, so limitless and free Desperately in need, of some, stranger's hand In a, desperate land
Lost in a Roman wilderness of pain And all the children are insane, all the children are insane Waiting for the summer rain, yeah There's danger on the edge of town Ride the King's highway, baby Weird scenes inside the gold mine Ride the highway west, baby Ride the snake, ride the snake To the lake, the ancient lake, baby The snake is long, seven miles
Ride the snake, he's old, and his skin is cold The west is the best, the west is the best Get here, and we'll do the rest The blue bus is callin' us, the blue bus is callin' us Driver, where you taken us
The killer awoke before dawn, he put his boots on He took a face from the ancient gallery And he walked on down the hall
He went into the room where his sister lived, and, then he Paid a visit to his brother, and then he He walked on down the hall, and And he came to a door, and he looked inside Father, yes son, I want to kill you Mother, I want to, fuck you
C'mon baby, take a chance with us C'mon baby, take a chance with us C'mon baby, take a chance with us
And meet me at the back of the blue bus Doin' a blue rock, on a blue bus Doin' a blue rock, c'mon, yeah Kill, kill, kill, kill, kill, kill This is the end, beautiful friend
This is the end, my only friend, the end It hurts to set you free But you'll never follow me The end of laughter and soft lies The end of nights we tried to die This is the end
Jadev Payeng has single-handedly grown a sprawling forest on a 1,360 acre (550-hectare) sandbar in the middle of the Brahmaputra. It now has many endangered animals, including at least 5 tigers, one of which bore 2 cubs recently.
It all started way back in 1979 when floods washed a large number of snakes ashore on the sandbar. One day, after the waters had receded, Payeng , only 16 then, found the place dotted with the dead reptiles. He alerted forest department & asked them if they could grow trees here. But department were of the view that nothing would grow there. Jadev was instead asked to try planting bamboo. It was painful but he did it & without anyone's help.
Leaving his education and home, he started living on the sandbar. He watered the plants morning and evening and pruned them. After a few years, the sandbar was transformed into a bamboo thicket. Soon, there were a variety of flora and fauna which burst in the sandbar, including endangered animals like the one-horned rhino and Royal Bengal tiger.
"Nature has made a food chain; why can't we stick to it? Who would protect these animals if we, as superior beings, start hunting them?"-Jadav Payeng
This song goes out to the most beautiful woman. Glad!! i have had the opportunity to meet her . Doesn't matter , with or without you I shall live. your memories so sweet, so amazing. Life will never be the same without you. Thank You :) tu me manques.
Is Hell exothermic (gives off heat) or endothermic (absorbs heat)?
Most of the students wrote proofs of their beliefs using Boyle's Law (gas cools when it expands and heats when it is compressed) or some variant.
One student, however, wrote the following:
First, we need to know how the mass of Hell is changing in time. So we need to know the rate at which souls are moving into Hell and the rate at which they are leaving. I think that we can safely assume that once a soul gets to Hell, it will not leave. Therefore, no souls are leaving.
As for how many souls are entering Hell, let's look at the different Religions that exist in the world today. Most of these religions state that if you are not a member of their religion, you will go to Hell. Since there is more than one of these religions and since people do not belong to more than one religion, we can project that all souls go to Hell.
With birth and death rates as they are, we can expect the number of souls in Hell to increase exponentially. Now, we look at the rate of change of the volume in Hell because Boyle's Law states that in order for the temperature and pressure in Hell to stay the same, the volume of Hell has to expand proportionately as souls are added.
This gives two possibilities: 1. If Hell is expanding at a slower rate than the rate at which souls enter Hell, then the temperature and pressure in Hell will increase until all Hell breaks loose. 2. If Hell is expanding at a rate faster than the increase of souls in Hell, then the temperature and pressure will drop until Hell freezes over. So which is it?
If we accept the postulate given to me by Teresa during my Freshman year that, "it will be a cold day in Hell before I go out with you", and take into account the fact that I went out with her last night, then number 2 must be true, and thus I am sure that Hell is exothermic and has already frozen over. The corollary of this theory is that since Hell has frozen over, it follows that it is not accepting any more souls and is therefore, extinct . . . leaving only Heaven, thereby proving the existence of a divine being which explains why, last night, Teresa kept shouting "Oh my God."
In my previous posts' all i have done is rant , and rant !! I stay near Chirec Public school , in Hyderabad. It is supposed to be one of those posh schools, where children come in sedans and SUVs (pencho!! :P ) . Just beside that school , stands another school. this one is a poor community school, where all the not so well-off students go. Both the schools start at the same time. while the students of the posh school wear shiny new uniforms, the community school students are not that lucky. I saw one kid who came to the small paan shop near my flat. the kid had a torn bag. no shoes, untucked shirt. I peeped into his bag, saw chirec public school notebooks. notebooks used and thrown by those rich kids. He would use the remaining pages of the notebook to write.
That got me thinking. Look at this child. does not have shoes, does not have a uniform, does not have a notebook to write into. still smiling. still happy.
It prompted me to ask myself. Are our problems that profound? Do i really have a reason to be that depressed? Relationship problems, are they worth brooding over to that level that u start hurting yourself?. Are we not here to achieve those great dreams, to create wonders? Could I make life simple? Yes i could!! yes i will!! I willl drive home my points via graphics (you guys must be bored, reading so much :D )
so here is everything to make life simple, to make life happy :D
1) Learn More swear words
Calvin: Life’s disappointments are harder to take when you don’t know any swear words. A BC , MC here and there and, and life will be much more fun!!
2) Don't be too harsh on yourself!
3) Know thyself. May be you are too cool for the world!
4) Try having an alter-ego. Makes you all powerful and life much simpler :)
5) Life needs its cheap thrills .
6) At times all you need is "A swift kick in the butt" to see life in a saner perspective.
Its totally worth the dollar. Admit it, you need it :)
7) Remind yourself that you really don't need A LOT to be happy.
I begin with these lines, because life has not been the same. Darn, it will never ever be.
As i look back and reflect on the last 10 months, i realise that i have changed. Situations have changed. The dynamics of my thought process has changed.
Here's a look-back at how the journey has been so far.
THE BARE BEGINNINGS..
Its good to be optimistic. to be hopeful. and hopeful and optimistic i was. i distinctly remember the first day @Factset. Corporate life. fuck yeah, the mind thought. All dressed up, starry eyed!! felt like a school kid again., the same zeal and excitement. One week into the job, and things started getting clearer. The introspection genie returned. Kept cornering me with the same thoughts "Is this what I want to do ?? ". Actually, have been asking the same question since the sophomore year of my college. Am i ever going to be a good computer science engineer? The answer of course, is an emphatic NO!! (on this, later ;) )
LESSON LEARNT: Do what the heart yearns, loves, is passionate about. At least, take steps towards it. you might not earn as much , but you will be a happy soul.
THE MATTERS OF HEART..
Have been terrible at this. always. Long story short. i broke up. caused hurt. And then, i got the favor returned. Life has beautiful ways to getting back to you. And believe me, being in love with someone, and knowing that the person doesn't give the slightest fuck about you is pain. pain in the purest form. whoa that hurts.
LESSON LEARNT: In words of a very close friend, Save your love, respect and dedication for that person who deserves it. respects your feelings. Important.
THE STONED SAINT..
The chest hurts. The breath feels heavy. Somehow, somewhere down the line , i never knew that i was getting stoned everyday. The moment depression came,I lit a joint. The Depression Ninja would attack, and bam! came my protection . The Joint. what started as a recreation and amazingly fun affair in college was becoming an anti depressant. the one taking a heavy toll on my body.
LESSON still being LEARNT:
Moderation is the essence of life. weed so is not going to solve your problems. Taking responsibility will.
THE DELUSIONAL TRAVELER..
Take the CAT. do well. why? because money makes life easier.
keep singing. why? because it makes me happy.
simple? should have been my path? but how i fucked up!
From being a happy child/adult to one who was lost, depressed, and completely fucked up. Life did take a wrong turn.
LESSON LEARNT:
Introspect. It helps you get back to the path. We were all born to achieve amazing feats. believe in this fact
Long story short, the last ten months have been horrendous. i have fucked up. to the grandest scale.
but there is hope. there always was. All you need is that divine intervention. that realization that its all going to work out. that you have the support of some great friends. the backing and care of your family. That bliss is not far away. All you need to do is close your eyes, and smile in bliss.
Would like to end it with some beautiful lines from the movie Udaan
