I swam across,
I jumped across for you,
Oh what a thing to do.
'Cause you were all yellow,
I drew a line,
I drew a line for you,
Oh what a thing to do,
And it was all yellow.
It's true,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine.
Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And all the things that you do.
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I begin with these lines, because life has not been the same. Darn, it will never ever be.
As i look back and reflect on the last 10 months, i realise that i have changed. Situations have changed. The dynamics of my thought process has changed.
Here's a look-back at how the journey has been so far.
THE BARE BEGINNINGS..
Its good to be optimistic. to be hopeful. and hopeful and optimistic i was. i distinctly remember the first day @Factset. Corporate life. fuck yeah, the mind thought. All dressed up, starry eyed!! felt like a school kid again., the same zeal and excitement. One week into the job, and things started getting clearer. The introspection genie returned. Kept cornering me with the same thoughts "Is this what I want to do ?? ". Actually, have been asking the same question since the sophomore year of my college. Am i ever going to be a good computer science engineer? The answer of course, is an emphatic NO!! (on this, later ;) )
LESSON LEARNT: Do what the heart yearns, loves, is passionate about. At least, take steps towards it. you might not earn as much , but you will be a happy soul.
THE MATTERS OF HEART..
Have been terrible at this. always. Long story short. i broke up. caused hurt. And then, i got the favor returned. Life has beautiful ways to getting back to you. And believe me, being in love with someone, and knowing that the person doesn't give the slightest fuck about you is pain. pain in the purest form. whoa that hurts.
LESSON LEARNT: In words of a very close friend, Save your love, respect and dedication for that person who deserves it. respects your feelings. Important.
THE STONED SAINT..
The chest hurts. The breath feels heavy. Somehow, somewhere down the line , i never knew that i was getting stoned everyday. The moment depression came,I lit a joint. The Depression Ninja would attack, and bam! came my protection . The Joint. what started as a recreation and amazingly fun affair in college was becoming an anti depressant. the one taking a heavy toll on my body.
LESSON still being LEARNT:
Moderation is the essence of life. weed so is not going to solve your problems. Taking responsibility will.
THE DELUSIONAL TRAVELER..
Take the CAT. do well. why? because money makes life easier.
keep singing. why? because it makes me happy.
simple? should have been my path? but how i fucked up!
From being a happy child/adult to one who was lost, depressed, and completely fucked up. Life did take a wrong turn.
LESSON LEARNT:
Introspect. It helps you get back to the path. We were all born to achieve amazing feats. believe in this fact
Long story short, the last ten months have been horrendous. i have fucked up. to the grandest scale.
but there is hope. there always was. All you need is that divine intervention. that realization that its all going to work out. that you have the support of some great friends. the backing and care of your family. That bliss is not far away. All you need to do is close your eyes, and smile in bliss.
Would like to end it with some beautiful lines from the movie Udaan
Nadi mein talab hai
Kahin jo agar, samandar kahan door hai
Damakti garaz hai, sone mein agar
To jalna bhi manzoor hai
Ik udaan kab talak yun kaid rahegi
Roko na chod do isse
Ik udaan hi sapno ko zindagi degi
Sapno se jod do isse
Purani daleelon, rasmon ko sabhi
Abhi se kahe alvida
Badalte dino ke tareekon se
Seechein hum naya gulistan
Ik udaan kab talak yun kaid rahegi
Roko na chod do isse
Ik udaan hi sapno ko zindagi degi
Sapno se jod do isse
Ik udaan kab talak yun kaid rahegi
Roko na chod do isse
Ik udaan hi sapno ko zindagi degi
Sapno se jod do isse
very nice..;)
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